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Crazy life

Fall is upon us here in Ohio, and it got me thinking. Two years ago, my life was absolutely perfect. I was enjoying senior year with my friends. The hardest thing I was going through was some difficult classes and other mundane troubles. It was around October that things in my life started to “fall apart”. I was having some health issues, battling a nasty case of Pluerisy, which resulted in chest xrays and a lot of sleepless nights. I thought that was the worst thing to happen to me; boy was I wrong. Afterall, it was around this time that I learned that my mother had a suspicious spot on her breast that needed to be checked out. Instead of just a mammogram, a biopsy was ordered. Weeks later, I would receive a devasting blow in which I would learn that my mom had Stage 2 Breast Cancer. Words cannot describe how devastating it is to hear the words “your mother has cancer.” In the days and weeks following, I went from being a typical, colllege senior, to a daughter thrust into a scary world in which I was the one to help take care of her after surgery. All my life my mother had been my strength; now I had to be hers.

The weeks and months following her diagnosis would prove to be the most difficult and emotionally draining of my entire life. I was scared, I was angry, I was confused, and I wanted it to be over. Eventually, after 16 weeks of chemo treatments, my mother was halfway through her journey. She had her last chemo treatment a week before my college graduation, and I will never forget the sight of her, wearing her wig proudly, eyes watering and feeling awful because of chemo, watching me cross that stage from one journey to the next. Perhaps the symbolism of  that moment was the fact that not only was I moving on to the next stage, so was she.

And what a stage it was: radiation treatments, much easier on her body, and what I felt was the return of my “pre-cancer mom”—happy and almost healthy. It was wonderful.

My life will never be the same; cancer transformed me through and through. I am stronger because of it, and will never forget the lesson it taught me: Family is what gets you through your worst days, and your darkest hour may just be the most enlightening. As Winston Churchill once said, “When you’re going through hell, keep going.” And that’s exactly what me, my Dad, my sister and my Mom did.

9/11

I can’t believe today marks ten years since 9/11. I will never forget that day, where I was, what I felt, and how it changed our world. That day, the world stood still. Like Pearl Harbor, that day went down in infamy, and while we were devastated, we came together as a country, united in grief, but proud of our country. We are still the greatest nation in the world, and my hope is that we never lose our sense of pride and our strength, because if there is any lesson learned from 9/11; it’s that we will overcome and emerge from our darkest hour stronger than ever before.

Greatness comes not when things always go good for you, but the greatness comes when you are really tested, when you take some knocks, some disappointments, when sadness comes. Because only if you have been in the deepest valleys can you ever know how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain.
Richard Nixon

23

I can’t believe that it’s already my birthday. It’s my favorite day of the year and I still count down the months/weeks/days til my birthday, even at 23.

The last 23 years have been full of lots of ups and downs, but through it all, I’ve found my way and become the person I am meant to be. The last two years of my life have changed me the most, and while I wouldn’t wish some events on my worst enemy, they have made me a better and stronger person than I ever thought possible. So cheers to 23 years of being me! :)

It is easy to forget how perfectly life works out. When you are down, you believe that things never work in your favor. But if you look back, you see that, in many cases, things happened exactly the way they needed to.
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I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.
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